The Crossroad Inn

08:48 AM - The Rug is Ripped Out (all Comments Now Answered.. Yay)- Update included
Category: Life

*Update....

We have found out our rights.. we don't have to move until lease ends but having said that.. I have no desire to improve the place or plant a crop for others to enjoy. Plus I don't want to be where I am unwanted I would rather create where I am wanted.

The way I look at it is that we will have to move either way.. now or then..The Real Estate said when asked that they will help us find another place if the people want this one but then this was the only nice listing they had....



The news came that we have two more couples taking a  look through here on Thursday this week.. so now we have to put up with people coming through left right and centre.

and then finding out it is the cheapest property at present in the area did not bode well for our future either... argghhh

Glen and I decided to move if we find a nice place

I have visitors at the farm again.

My mum and dad are visiting and my baby girl finally got time off work and hitched a ride up with them.

For the readers that do not know, I have six children and my eldest daughter Krystal is all grown up now at 21. She lives 1500 kilometres away from me near my mum and dad in my old hometown of Wollongong.

Unfortunately dealing with logistics and my husbands illness has meant that I haven't seen Krystal for a year and a half.. Jan 2007 was the last time we were together.

There is 9 years between Kiralea and Krystal so for most of her childhood Krystal was an "only" child. We are very close to each other and very similar.. yes she has my wicked sense of humor

I missed her so much. We talked on the phone daily and via messaging but it wasn't the same as being together and giving her a big hug.

It was good timing for my family to come and visit just as I was devastated by another blow by my good friend Murphy. It felt better to be surrounded by those who do love me.


Yesterday the real estate showed some people through our home. The owners have decided to sell all of a sudden and it looks like these people are buying. If not them, someone else will.

These people are buying for themselves and it looks like we will have to move out. Glen says they can't make us move as we have a lease that expires next May but I am not so sure after listening to the agent and them talking....


So yes I am devastated. Yesterday I just wandered around the farm in sadness. Everything I had created and started to build will be ripped out from under me again. I looked sadly at my new vegetable garden I was digging out and then at my newly planted herb garden.

I could cry... well I did ......lots.

How can I build a future for my children when this happens. How can I build a life for them when the rug gets ripped out from under our feet.


The Real Estate agent walked in and looked around and said "wow you have this place looking stunnning.. you are really at home here aren't you"

I just grimaced and bit my lip to stop the embarassing flood of tears and looked away and then jumped on the quadbike and did a few suicidal laps of the farm.


I have made a lovely home for my family here..Of course the real estate agent was impressed... the house looked so inviting.. real cosy and friendly....a big pot of country broth was bubbling away next to the bowl of fresh eggs from the chooks......the white tiled floors shone and everything was spotless.. my Limoges display porcelain stood out and they even stopped and admired that.. I was thinking .."yeah bad luck..that doesn't come with the house"....


I had even bought new rugs for the tile floors in each room and everything just looked so right and just nice.

the animals made it even better and more comfy and the gardens and grounds were immaculate...

anyone would want to buy it plus they have it on the market as cheap as chips...



The lady was walking through saying... "oh I could put all my glassware here" and "this will be great for a sewing room" .. my head just hung lower and my soul  shrunk more and more with every word she said.

Then to ice my cake mum got real sick again. I wondered why they made a special trip up to see me when they had been here a couple of months ago. I think I now know why but I don't want to go there....

Mum has anuerysms on her brain. It bleeds in two places and the doctors can't stop the bleeds. Hence every now and them mum bleeds from the nose and eyes and always has a horrific headache.. She described it to me as feeling like the top of her head was going to blow off and explode.

A few months ago the doctor told her that her brain was getting mushy where the blood pools .. nothing can stop this happening apparently.. he gave mum medication to "numb" her brain so that dad and her could go on holidays and visit New Zealand.


Well the night before last mum had a big bleed and only spent a tiny amount of time with us yesterday at the farm before going back to their motel. (they stay at a motel so mum can rest away from noisy children)

So I am worried about my mum who really is my best friend in the whole world and the one constant through my life....she has never judged me and always accepted me for all my oddities...

And of course yesterday the real estate agent had more bad news for me.. I had a client that I was doing quite a few thousand dollars of work for. I had done most of the work and then tried to setup the appointment for payment and hand over of control/passwords to no avail... phone number was disconnected and emails were not answered....

Well the real estate agent told me yesterday that they had shut up shop and skipped town owing money....ahh yeah and at least 3000 of it was mine.....*sticks tongue in cheek... Geez ....I could have hired a moving truck for that money.....


So yeah....Just as the wheel turns and things start looking up again...

Shit Happens... again..................

I will survive.. I will pick myself up and dust myself off and rebuild.. but it just hurts sometimes...